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Category: memories

honeymoon/memories/wedding

Funny Friday

Posted on June 12, 2015 by Mrs Gray / 0 Comment

Funny memories are kind of my jam. This was definitely less funny at the time, but it’s hilarious now (especially my reaction). While we were on our honey...

BB gun/memories/Mr. Gray/Ranch/shooting/T-Paw

You’ll Shoot Your Eye Out!

Posted on March 20, 2015 by Mrs Gray / 0 Comment

Sunday we cruised out to The Ranch for a Ranger ride. We like to go check on things. Just see what’s going on. A field trip, if you will. The Ranger was i...

Baby Gray/memories/newborn/photos

Can I Snuggle You, Mama?

Posted on February 25, 2015 by Mrs Gray / 1 Comment

We spent most of yesterday morning snuggled up in bed playing hide ‘n go seek, building forts, and just being together. My sweet boy is so big. He gets bi...

2014/2015/Baby Gray/birthday/camp house/country life/go/goals/marriage/memories/move/Mr. Gray/prayer

Gone.

Posted on December 31, 2014 by Mrs Gray / 2 Comments

This year, I went with a word instead of a list of goals. I liked it. It encompassed many areas of my life. Go. Some days were easy. Some days were hard. There ...

Aggies/BuzzFeed/gangsta/graduation/memories

The Time BuzzFeed Forgot My Photo

Posted on November 5, 2014 by Mrs Gray / 0 Comment

Do you ever read BuzzFeed titles and think, “Oh no! I’m certainly going to be in this one?” Yeah, me neither. No, I mean, I usually feel prett...

death/grief/loss/memories

Eight-Seven

Posted on August 7, 2014 by Mrs Gray / 1 Comment

It’s etched in my memory as eight-seven: August 7th. It’s today. It’s here. This photo will always be August 7th to me. I remember it so vivid...

anniversary/friends/memories/wedding

Memory Lane

Posted on June 11, 2014 by Mrs Gray / 0 Comment

Last night as we talked in the car on the way to (and from) dinner, we found ourselves reminiscing over the memories of the last 14+ years. We sang songs from h...

Grammie/grandparents/memories/Papa

Leave a Legacy

Posted on May 6, 2014 by Mrs Gray / 0 Comment

This is one of my favorite photos of two of my favorite people. I miss them so–especially today. We had so much fun, and all these years later, I still ha...

Facebook/high school/Instagram/memories/pretend

Time Travelin’

Posted on April 15, 2014 by Mrs Gray / 5 Comments

A funny thing happens as I get older, the kids I used to babysit get older, too. Even though they’re still cute little kiddos in my brain, they’re a...

2014/just for fun/memories

‘Cuz I Missed You

Posted on March 27, 2014 by Mrs Gray / 2 Comments

Yeah, I missed you…(You know you’re wishing you had Lisa Loeb glasses while you sing that in your head.) Things I miss: Flexibility (in the literal,...

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Hi, I’m Jolie…

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Wife to Josh, mama to Hays (7), hopeful adoptive mama, and Jesus lover. I founded Purpose Box in July of 2014. I'm all about open sunroofs and coffee dates. Welcome to my space; have a click around. I hope you feel loved, encouraged, and empowered.

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If you saw my post yesterday, you know our endo ap If you saw my post yesterday, you know our endo appointment Thursday threw me for a loop. 

The best way I can describe it is feeling like the rug was pulled out from under me. I no longer knew which data was good. I had two data points on polar ends of the spectrum. 

My heart of hearts was telling me my large sample (the Dexcom data) was right. I know what we do day in and day out. I know what the math looks like for that size sample of information and the risk of error that large. 

My reading yesterday morning was about lamenting—crying out to God. As I journaled, I prayed, “Show me which data is good. Show me how to go forward in the best, healthiest way for the boy.” 

I had already shopped in-home A1C tests online. I called around and checked locally. One of our local pharmacies had one and pulled it back for me. Based on price and location, I was expecting a store-brand version—which still works. Instead, I was met with the better brand with good reviews all over the internet. 

All I needed was a set of numbers to match the info I had—or at least be in the middle to bring some light to the subject. I needed to be back on a solid foundation. I needed to know which data to use to drive decisions for the boy’s care. 

After school, we came right in and took the test. It matched our initial information from the Dexcom. Back on solid ground. Back to firm footing. Back to solid data-driven decisions. 

Mamas, trust your gut.

I’ll tell you, our doctor already knew I was leery before we left the office. She ran a second test for me (same machine) to verify. I am not upset or angry or even disappointed. We just needed more information. I’m grateful for the resources and opportunity to have it.
Yesterday the boy had his regular endo check up. I Yesterday the boy had his regular endo check up. I sort of left feeling a little bit like each one of our faces here. 

👨🏻 The face-value smile: On paper, what we are doing is working well. (Paper for us is our Dexcom info.) 

👦🏼 The hiding face: But—for some reason it did not translate to his A1C this round. 

💁🏼‍♀️ The absolute adoration for our boy: YES! He rocked his lab work yesterday. He asked good questions. He is growing and learning how to manage this condition on his own. 

Honestly, I left pretty disappointed and disheartened because our work on paper didn’t match what his lab info showed.

An A1C is not the only measure of what we’re looking for, but if that’s off it makes me doubt our readings, time in range, etc that we are always striving to improve and do our best with. If the data we are working with isn’t accurate, it’s not driving us to good decisions. 

I don’t say any of this for sympathy or a mom shout out or a hug or a pity party, but merely to encourage you if you’re walking through something similar. 

Today I’m going to shake it off, make a plan for double-checking our data and keep on trucking. Diabetes doesn’t stop for me to regroup and rethink. It’s all on the fly.

So, fly we will!
“If I wait on the world to tell me when to stop, “If I wait on the world to tell me when to stop, I never will.” — @handsfreerevolution 

As a family, we have made some choices that allow us time to be home more, time to be together more, time to be in our kitchen more, at our table more, you get the picture. 

I recently had someone tell me that I wouldn’t have all the time I had to get things done if I had their schedule. And they’re right. And it’s intentional. 

Each family has to find their fit. And for us, this is ours. We are over half-way done with the boy’s time at home. Soon he’ll have extra curricular obligations that we’ll have less control over the when and how of. So, for now, we’ll take the time to stop because it’s our time to take.
Rhythm. Once again, I came into the week of the Rhythm. 

Once again, I came into the week of the new year with no words or expectations. 

Lately, God has been showing me more about rhythm. Routine. Seasons. Cycles. 

2020 allowed us to take a step back. To focus on the important. To major on the majors. As things begin to return to “normal,” there are some things I don’t want to shift in my heart. I want to hold on to the rhythm of rest. The rhythm of grace. The rhythm of ministry and love and fulfillment. 

“Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly.” Matthew 11:28-30
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