Skip to content
  • About
  • Type 1 Diabetes
  • Adoption
  • Marriage Matters
  • Recipes
  • Featured On
  • Favorites

Category: death

2012/2018/Adoption/Baby Gray/dealing/death/faith/family/grief/loss/Mr. Gray/prayer/promises/restoration

Full Circle Faith

Posted on September 9, 2018 by Jolie / 0 Comment

I shared on social media a few weeks ago that we had taken a step in a new direction regarding our impending adoption. View this post on Instagram   So, th...

anniversary/death/love/marriage/Marriage Matters/Mr. Gray/on my heart/suicide awareness/Sunday

Weep with Those Who Weep

Posted on June 10, 2018 by Jolie / 1 Comment

Today is our twelfth wedding anniversary, and in anniversaries past, I have come to this space to profess my undying love for my husband as well as my appreciat...

cancer/death/loss

BTHO Eugene!

Posted on July 30, 2015 by Mrs Gray / 1 Comment

Lots of our friends have gotten married over the years. We’ve been in many weddings and made many new “friends” for the weekend. We usually en...

death/grief/loss/suicide awareness

I Wasn’t Going to Go There

Posted on August 12, 2014 by Mrs Gray / 2 Comments

Robin Williams. I wasn’t going to go there. I don’t feel like I lost a long lost friend or some of the emotional connections to childhood movies tha...

death/grief/loss/memories

Eight-Seven

Posted on August 7, 2014 by Mrs Gray / 1 Comment

It’s etched in my memory as eight-seven: August 7th. It’s today. It’s here. This photo will always be August 7th to me. I remember it so vivid...

2014/Christ/Dalton/death/faith/grief/heaven/loss/Papa

Victory Claimed

Posted on March 5, 2014 by Mrs Gray / 0 Comment

We know that in Christ, death is not final. Christ wins; the victory is His and His alone. Essentially, Satan loses. Is that where the “Did I do enough?&#...

2013/death/faith/family/grief/loss/love/promises/scripture

Look for Him

Posted on August 12, 2013 by Mrs Gray / 0 Comment

Yesterday morning, as we were on our way to church, this popped up in my Facebook feed: Looks like any other Bible verse, yes? Well, yes and no. See, last week ...

2013/death/faith/family/grief/loss/love

Wishing for Words

Posted on August 8, 2013 by Mrs Gray / 1 Comment

I wish I had words for today. I really do. It’s not a story for me to keep; it’s His for me to tell. I don’t have the words to do it justice y...

2013/death/faith/family/grief/loss/love/memories

The Bright on a Dark Day

Posted on August 7, 2013 by Mrs Gray / 0 Comment

As expected, today is here. Not quite as expected, I didn’t count down and wait, watching the calendar and the clock until lunch time rolled around on the...

2013/death/faith/grief/loss/love/memories

Today

Posted on August 6, 2013 by Mrs Gray / 0 Comment

This sums it up. Sunshine in the rain. Beauty in the fire. 

Posts navigation

1 2 3 Next »

Hi, I’m Jolie…

jolie-gray
Wife to Josh, mama to Hays (7), hopeful adoptive mama, and Jesus lover. I founded Purpose Box in July of 2014. I'm all about open sunroofs and coffee dates. Welcome to my space; have a click around. I hope you feel loved, encouraged, and empowered.

Texas forever.

Purpose Box

purpose-box

Get The Gray Matters in your inbox!

Enter your email address to subscribe to this blog and receive notifications of new posts by email.

the_graymatters

Fun fact: pasture dates might just be some of my f Fun fact: pasture dates might just be some of my favorites. I talk and talk and talk. We count calves. We listen to music. I talk some more. 

Don’t overthink it. Dates can be anywhere, anytime. All that matters is focused attention and who you’re with. 

What are some simple dates you can add to your mix?
Fun morning in the gym! I love the competitive sid Fun morning in the gym! I love the competitive side of him that basketball brings out. We don’t see it much sometimes.

Are you competitive? 

(I’ll let you guess whether I am or not. 😂😂)
If you saw my post yesterday, you know our endo ap If you saw my post yesterday, you know our endo appointment Thursday threw me for a loop. 

The best way I can describe it is feeling like the rug was pulled out from under me. I no longer knew which data was good. I had two data points on polar ends of the spectrum. 

My heart of hearts was telling me my large sample (the Dexcom data) was right. I know what we do day in and day out. I know what the math looks like for that size sample of information and the risk of error that large. 

My reading yesterday morning was about lamenting—crying out to God. As I journaled, I prayed, “Show me which data is good. Show me how to go forward in the best, healthiest way for the boy.” 

I had already shopped in-home A1C tests online. I called around and checked locally. One of our local pharmacies had one and pulled it back for me. Based on price and location, I was expecting a store-brand version—which still works. Instead, I was met with the better brand with good reviews all over the internet. 

All I needed was a set of numbers to match the info I had—or at least be in the middle to bring some light to the subject. I needed to be back on a solid foundation. I needed to know which data to use to drive decisions for the boy’s care. 

After school, we came right in and took the test. It matched our initial information from the Dexcom. Back on solid ground. Back to firm footing. Back to solid data-driven decisions. 

Mamas, trust your gut.

I’ll tell you, our doctor already knew I was leery before we left the office. She ran a second test for me (same machine) to verify. I am not upset or angry or even disappointed. We just needed more information. I’m grateful for the resources and opportunity to have it.
Yesterday the boy had his regular endo check up. I Yesterday the boy had his regular endo check up. I sort of left feeling a little bit like each one of our faces here. 

👨🏻 The face-value smile: On paper, what we are doing is working well. (Paper for us is our Dexcom info.) 

👦🏼 The hiding face: But—for some reason it did not translate to his A1C this round. 

💁🏼‍♀️ The absolute adoration for our boy: YES! He rocked his lab work yesterday. He asked good questions. He is growing and learning how to manage this condition on his own. 

Honestly, I left pretty disappointed and disheartened because our work on paper didn’t match what his lab info showed.

An A1C is not the only measure of what we’re looking for, but if that’s off it makes me doubt our readings, time in range, etc that we are always striving to improve and do our best with. If the data we are working with isn’t accurate, it’s not driving us to good decisions. 

I don’t say any of this for sympathy or a mom shout out or a hug or a pity party, but merely to encourage you if you’re walking through something similar. 

Today I’m going to shake it off, make a plan for double-checking our data and keep on trucking. Diabetes doesn’t stop for me to regroup and rethink. It’s all on the fly.

So, fly we will!
Load More... Follow on Instagram

Activate

© 2021
Powered by WordPress | Theme: Graphy by Themegraphy