Transition Times

I used the word unsettled a while back to describe this state I feel like we’re in right now. Since we’re back in a routine this fall, I feel less unsettled and more “in transition.” I mean, we have our routine: school, soccer, football, tutoring, and the like. I don’t feel like we are just floundering trying to figure out how to live here anymore. We’re getting in a groove, but we can’t get in too far, because just as soon as we do, we’ll move again.

Transition Times

This time in transition has made me highly aware that knowing something in your brain and living it practically are two very different things. Even though we’ll be living in the same town when we move, we’ll be in a completely different area. Things that are easily accessible from this side of town will be inconvenient once we get the house built.

And, even though I feel less unsettled, I just can’t get it all together. Things I’m usually on top of are sneaking up on me. I can’t find things I need in storage. I feel like I can’t get into a good work flow. I sometimes feel like I live out of my car. It’s not about our small space, our location, or our proximity to things. It’s about me–my head, my heart. I can’t get it out of transition mode just yet.

I am grateful for this time–time as a family in our little house on the hill; time to prepare for our new home and the Kingdom work God has for us in it. I’m grateful for the friends we’re making and the life we’re building in our hometown. I love being close to family. I’m using this time to let God work and prepare my heart for what is to come.

Marriage is the Best Medicine

Some days, the best medicine is your husband’s shoulder to cry on and his arms wrapped tight around you. Other days, the best medicine is the laughter, the inside jokes, the memories, and all the good things that can only come from knowing someone the way you know them when you’re married.

Gameday Outtake

Nothing beats marriage, y’all. You have the ultimate partner in life–through thick and thin. I’m so grateful for my marriage, my husband, my partner.

Sweet Dreams, Baby

Since the beginning, Baby Gray has been a great sleeper. Every now and then, he’d wake in the night for something, but for the most part, he (and we) get a full night’s sleep.

Sleepy Boy

A year or so ago, he had a couple of scares in the night, but he only remembered it once. From what I have read, the ones he doesn’t remember are night terrors, and the ones he does are nightmares. With the night terrors, we always cuddle up in his bed, pray, and he goes right back to sleep.

The nightmares are a different story, though. I had forgotten how heartbreaking it is until yesterday. Monday night, he woke up crying. I laid down with him, but he was uneasy and unnerved. He finally fell back asleep, but he crept into our bed when Mr. Gray went to work Tuesday morning and slept another few hours cuddled up with me. He never does that. He’s an in-his-own-bed sleeper.

Most of the day Tuesday, he avoided the bedroom. He didn’t want to go in there in case the “pumpkin man” was in there again. At naptime, he laid down tentatively. He was unsure. When he woke up, he cheered that the “pumpkin farmer” didn’t come. He was so glad. I was glad.

Then bed time came. Our sweet boy was so anxious and worried that the “pumpkin man” would come again. We talked through it, read a book, prayed, sang, left lights on (apparently the “pumpkin farmer” doesn’t like the light), and then tucked in tightly. A few minutes later, he called me in and asked me to tell the “farmer” to go away, keep his hands to himself, and go to church to learn about Jesus.

Y’all, my heart had been completely broken for my boy, but in that moment, I couldn’t have been more proud of my sweet son. I pray we get back to peaceful nights, calm sleep, and no more pumpkin folks–unless we carve them into a jack o’lantern.

Have your kids had night terrors or nightmares? What were your go-to ways to deal with them?

Just Another Manic Monday

A while back I promised I was not going to turn this place into a giant list. I don’t think I’ve done a very good job of that. Apparently I’m a compulsive list maker in more areas of my life than I realized.

And now for today’s random string of thoughts:

+ I keep seeing people with super cute short hair cuts. I’m thiiiiiis close to going for it. Thiiiiiiiiiis close.

+ I miss closets. As much as I like living in this little house, I long for a closet. Clutter gives me the heebie jeebies.

+ The taste of fall weather this weekend was amazing. I got to wear a scarf and long sleeves. Also, according to Mr. Gray, a big shirt. I’ll take it!

Rice vs Aggie Gameday

+ I’ve said it before, but I’m going to say it again: packing lunches is such a mom thing to do.

+ Related: I love letting Baby Gray pick things from the book orders each month. 

+ The cannon is not going to be in Kyle Field this year. I’m more than disappointed. Live feed on the screen is not the same thing. If we’ve got to be in transition at home, we might as well do it with the football team.

+ Pretty sure I just whined a lot. I better check that at the door. To end on a high note, head over and enter this fun giveaway from Erica. You can never have too many backpacks. (Be sure you make a list of what you’ll put in there.)

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In New York…

I made my first trip to New York City in 2006. I was newly married, Christmas decor was starting to show up on the city streets, and my world couldn’t have been happier.

As we toured the city on the Greyline bus, we drove past an area with tiles hanging from a chainlink fence.

Tile Fence 9-11

After the attacks, people were leaving notes on this fence for loved ones. It was the closest they could get to the Twin Towers area. The notes weren’t sustainable, though, so they started hanging tiles. Five years after the attacks, the city was still remembering daily, not just on September 11th.

A little further down on the tour, we drove past Ground Zero.

Ground Zero

People were in and out, trucks, tractors, and equipment were buzzing around. No real plan had been made for the site at that time. But people were there–remembering–in November. Remembering loved ones, lives lost, tragedy on our home soil. I pray peace for each of those families today. I pray protection for the first responders throughout our country who race in as others are running out. I’m thankful for this country where we have so much freedom.

This is my last glimpse of New York City in August of 2013. The memorial is up in the photo, but it wasn’t quite finished. This was from Newark airport.

NYC

I love that skyline, and I can’t wait to go back (I can’t believe how long it’s been) to the city that has experienced so much. 

 

Hide ‘n Go Seek

Y’all. Since we moved in to the house on the hill, I’ve been on the hunt for my crock pots. Yes, two of them. I misplaced two crock pots. I wanted to make lasagna soup for supper tonight, so I bought a new crock pot while I was out yesterday evening.

Lasagna Soup

When I opened the pantry to get the Italian style diced tomatoes, there it was. The crock pot. Yes, right there in the pantry. Granted, it wasn’t the crock pot I normally use. It’s the one I don’t like, but it was there. At eye level. I lost a crock pot that was right in front of me. For months. It’s been “missing” since April. Really?

So I did what anyone would do in my shoes. I opened the new crock pot and got everything ready to turn on in the morning. I’m now the proud owner of three crock pots–including the missing one still sitting on my pantry shelf. And, of course, the camo one (that is truly missing–at least I think it is).

PS: Don’t miss TOMS on sale on Zulily! (Heads up, affiliate link.)

Worth the Wait

You know the times we are called to wait? I find those to be the hardest times for me.

It is my personality to want to control the situation; to see what God has set before me and go pursue it. Sometimes that just isn’t what we are called to do, though. There is so much power in waiting as you are called. God uses every second of the wait to teach, encourage, and prepare our hearts for what is to come.

When I see worldly solutions all around me, I must remember the call placed on my heart. Our situations are all different, but I know one thing: when He ordains a plan in your heart, following Him is the path to take. Why would I stray from what He has told me to go after something in a worldly way? The world doesn’t have my back. The world doesn’t have a perfect plan in my life. The Lord doesn’t place temptation in our path.

We serve a God who loves us unconditionally, more than we can even fathom.

Love

I hate that I want to take control of things He has placed in my path. I wish I did not struggle so much with the wait. The wait is always the part I look back and delight in because the learning and refining is beautiful. My desire is to wait, pray, learn, and grow through the wait. He has plans that are so big, beautiful, and bright. He loves us–oh, how He loves us!

“Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes.” –Psalm 37:7

So Many Thoughts, A Lot Less Time

+ I feel like I have a bunch of ideas rattling around in my head. I don’t really know what to do with them all just yet. I’ll just keep shaking them around until I figure them out.

+ I got some labels for Baby Gray’s stuff from Kidecals, and when I put them on his stuff, I was promptly informed that, “stickers only go on paper.” Such a little enforcer.

+ I shared this as part of #fridayintroductions on the Purpose Box Instagram last week, but I love this little cartoon a friend designed of Mr. Gray and me.

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+ We had a great time in College Station, even if we didn’t get to watch a down of football. Yeah, you read that right. Unfortunately, due to the lightning delay, Baby Gray and I didn’t watch one single down in the new Kyle Field. We did see the Swagcopter and eat some kettle corn, though; so there’s that.

Lamar Game

+ Find My Friends is perhaps the most stalker app ever. However, it’s the most fun app, too. Seriously some of the funniest texts I get are from my stalker friends.

Find My Friends

+ I just read The Pregnancy Project, and I really liked it. The insights and thoughts it presented were a fresh perspective for me. I just started The Paris Wife, and I think it’s going to be good!  

+ After the Labor Day holiday last week, I’m ready for a regular week this week. Grocery shopping, school, tutoring, soccer, football, repeat.

F I V E

1. I had every intention of posting a first day of school interview with Baby Gray this week. I’m not sure how that got away from me. I’ll aim for a second day of school interview next week.

2. Soccer practice with a bunch of 4-6 year olds is funny. Really funny. I can’t wait to see what a game looks like.

Soccer2
Soccer1

Also, I’m not sure Coach (ie, Mr. Gray is impressed with our practice punctuality. What can I say? Naptime trumps soccer practice in Mom’s book.) 

3. Yesterday, I was on MOMquery talking about our experience with baby sign language. I found this video the other day from when Baby Gray was learning the sign for “help.” So cute! Did you sign with your kids?

4. I was working on my calendar for the month and getting a bit into October Wednesday night, and I’m excited just looking at it. We have so much fun stuff coming up; I can’t wait!

5. Playdates with Baby Gray’s friends are fun. Playdates with my friends are more fun. I am so grateful for good friends–near and far!